The last year has been a real rollercoaster ride. On August 3, 2024 we got hit by hurricane Debby. It wasn’t that bad just a few trees fell down. The house was good, no days without water or electricity. Two weeks later I had some heart pains and I almost passed out. I went to the emergency room and they monitored me and were just trying to get my stats down, so they could transfer me to a holding cell. It was a room with no windows and no bathroom. I should have known I was fine if it was ok for me to walk down the hall to the bathroom. In fact I should have just gotten dressed and walked out but hindsight. I spent the night, had the stress test and was sent home. The real stress test was being in that cell for the night with people coming and going. Gives me anxiety just thinking about it.

In September we had Helene blow through. We got hit hard, more emotionally than anything else. We lost 15+ trees. One was on the house but it wasn’t like others around here. So many people lost so much. Driving around seeing all the destruction around us. The large trees just blown over, the houses just gone. Once the electricity was back up and running, it was back to business. I was in the middle of dental work. Spending thousands to save my front tooth. So dentist appointments had to be done and then I had doctor appointments that just increased. I was seeing a cardiolgist because the nurse at the hospital said it was a good idea. I saw the nephrologist (kidney) because the gynocologist said there was narrowing in my kidneys from an ultrasound I had and of course the primary care just trying to keep me from abandoning all his medications he kept putting me on. My life was chaotic and I was sick. I had no energy, my heart had palpatations and I was in constant pain. Walking to put corn down for the deer was more work then I could muster. I kept telling the doctors this but they had no solutions.

It didn’t help that my yard still looked like a bomb had gone off. My fence was down in places and that was going to be expensive to fix. Trees and branches laid where they were from September and I had no energy to clean them up. I had nothing left in me.

My anxiety from all this was too much and the more I felt like crap the more anxious I got. I began to pray every morning. I was taking these spiritual classes and felt like I was being used for my money, so the instructor could travel to all the places I wanted to go to. She would come back and share her vacation pictures and spiritual experiences with the class and we were supposed to feel blessed by this and I guess feel the same spiritual affects she had. I got nothing, except resentful. So, I quit. Since 2020 I had been following this one spiritual teacher, Lorie Ladd, off and on because she tried to teach all the time but sometimes I felt it wasn’t relevant to me, so I wouldn’t listen. One day, she was in Kenya sick with malaria and she was praying to Jesus because she had struck up a relationship with him in the past year over other traumas she had had in her life. And she was praying to Jesus to make her well and Jesus said “what if you don’t get well enough?” I saw her YouTube short on this and I thought, that is my direction. That is the path I am supposed to be on. I am supposed to follow God 100%, nothing else. Mind you I hadn’t seen much from Lorie in months, you know how if you don’t watch someone the algorythms get all messed up.

We watched “The Chosen” when it first came out I really enjoyed getting to know Jesus as a person and not as the mythical being the churches had always made him out to be. Jonathan Roumie does a great job with this and he also believes in God and Jesus. One evening we watched Jonathan on Tucker Carlson and he was talking about this religous app he was part of called Hallow and so I looked into it and joined Hallow. I think that was in March because over Holy Week I gave up my phone for all things but calls and texts, which included using Hallow. I read the Bible instead. As of today I am on a 179 day streak of praying everyday with Hallow.

In July, Lorie started a 40 Day Invitation with God. I was hesitant about joining because I had just gotten away from the energies of the last class. So I emailed her and said I am unsure about this and she replied. Mind you I had already asked God what I should do and he said “Take it”. So I paid my money and joined. I will say I have never felt closer to God. I now have a relationship, the relationship I always knew I had but it was so much more. I have always stated I like my God one on one. I don’t need a church or minister to help me talk to God. I also don’t need anyone elses opinion of what/who God is.

Lorie in one of her YouTube shorts said she got baptized and Hallow kept talking about how everyone needs to be baptized to get into heaven. Also baptism washes away your sins and I needed that. So, I researched it and I asked the person I love most in the world to baptize me in the ocean (because I wanted all my sins to be washed far away) on our anniversary. I wanted it to be at sunrise, with dolphins and sunshine. Instead it was a rainy cloudy day and no dolphins to be seen. God did stop the rain long enough for me to be baptized and then the rain began again. I can still see me coming up out of the water. I was excited. It was the greatest experience. FYI: the water was cold. I recommend it. If you were baptized as a baby, do it as an adult. Confirm your love of Jesus and God again.

September 1st, I stopped taking all the meds the doctors had put me on for my high blood pressure and my anxiety. My blood pressure is perfect now. It will go up when I get stressed or irritated because that still happens because I am human. Just as Jesus got stressed and was anxious at times. I am so grateful for this gift from God. My health and the ability to actually live not just exist is such a huge blessing. I thank God for that.

It is now October and I am going into my 64th year of life and I am going with God and Jesus by my side. I am healthy and I am happy and I am now one of those people who always wants to talk about God and Jesus. I want to learn about all of it. So this year I am doing the Bible in a year. I want to know all the nuances of the Bible. I want to know the meanings and other meanings to all the parables Jesus stated. I want to understand why certain stories in the Bible have more meaning then others. I also want to know why there isn’t more on Mary Magdalene. I also am going to learn more about Enoch because Enoch came to me in a dream and I had no idea there was ever anyone named Enoch and yet he is major when it comes to God. Look him up.

For those folks who used to think they knew me, you have no idea who I was then and the new me would surprise you even more. I was always a light in the crowd but now I am brighter and more alive then I have ever been.

If you have wronged me I forgive you. Not for you but for me. May God Bless you all.

Love ,

Kelly

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